Can I import only the stuff that wasn't originally posted at DW and thus crossposted to LJ? I don't want to overwrite the original DW post with the LJ post if I can avoid it, and it's one of the main reasons I've never done this. I have quite a few years of LJ before I started posting from DW and cross-posting to LJ. I'm afraid that if I overwrite all the original DW posts, I'll lose all those comments, won't I? I have, for years, had way more comments in DW to a post than to LJ.
Also, I'm assuming I will lose all my memories of my own LJ posts, the ones I saved for easy access, if LJ goes away? Is there actually a way to back up the memories? Because for a couple years I was doing a lot of usage and writing posts, and that was way before tags, and movie recs, and the only way I have of finding those is to use the memories section where I saved them all by title.
Maybe I'm looking in the wrong place but I can't see any of this being addressed. Also, I have no time, I'm on deadline and way behind on both my work projects, so…I guess this isn't happening right away.
- Current Mood: distressed
Ha ha ha, you know me so well! :-D
Okay, I'll try my best not to self-deprecate.
One thing that turned out pretty well is the slipped focus/blurs I used in the Kings vid I made a couple years ago for Festivids, Monsters. I'd wanted to try to mimic a style I'd seen in a music video, but I realized really quickly that I couldn't really do what I'd seen, I didn't really have the tools and the type of footage, nor the technical skills, so I thought I'd try to sub in something that wasn't quite the blurred, oversaturated thing they were doing but was at least a little blurry. The first test clip I used it on worked really well, I thought, and so did a friend, and so I experimented on using it in different moments, different types of spots where I thought it showed Jack's messed up head. Overall I think it went really well and added an extra layer to his struggle in that vid.
Another editing choice I made that I really ended up liking was the way the helicopter sounds of the spoken word stream of consciousness stuff in the middle meshed with the clip of Steve being arrested after discovering Bucky's alive in Orange Crush. I knew the song would be a perfect backdrop for parallels in Steve and Bucky's stories, but once I was trying to figure out what the hell Michael Stipe was actually saying there, I had the epiphany that I didn't need to worry about what he was saying that much--I didn't need to find any good clips to match because I had a helicopter! And the entire sequence of Steve and Sam and Nat being taken down on the bridge fit perfectly there, plus, I had a helo! I still just love how that turned out.
And actually, I'm still really pleased with a lot of the editing choices I made in that vid (the way I dissolved from war-era Steve and Bucky to their modern versions, the shots for the orange crush, the aforementioned parallels), but one of the others that meant the most to me was how I introduced Bucky's section, because it's the same feeling I had with Hallo Spaceboy when I introduced Bucky's section in that. In OC, there are these sharp cracks, I think drumsticks hitting together? and in between scenes with Steve I put shots of Winter Soldier Bucky on those cracking notes, really fast, almost subliminal, and I really loved that. It's not quite the same thing, but in Spaceboy I was using space scenes from Contact, and there was this green space gas clip that ended up being perfect for introducing Bucky.
Cesperanza had suggested a clip there and I'd misremembered what she'd said, so I laid in that green space clip with the wrong Bucky clip to introduce his section of the vid, and when I sent it to her she was all "It's great! I love it!" but I was all OOPS NO I DID THAT WRONG. So I put the original clip she'd wanted and dissolved to the green space gas and then to Bucky's close up where he's trying to figure out what these memories are that are assaulting him. I told her, when I sent the corrected version, how much I liked it because it was pinging my synesthesia--there's a blurred green streetlight behind Bucky that melds with the green space that melds with the greenish tint to the room around Bucky's face, and we both were doing the text equivalent of jumping up and down and squealing. I still can watch that two seconds of vid over and over. ;-D
Anyway, getting back to things:
For the 27th, kirbyfest asked If there was a cancelled TV show you could bring back, which would you pick? With the same cast (this is a fantasy, so pretend this is totally possible even if someone has passed away), or rebooted with a new cast?
Yes, hands down, Now and Again. It was a brilliant, witty, clever, unique show with some of the most amazing performances (Dennis Haysbert's Dr. Theo Morris at the top of them) and musical selections and spot-on New York guest stars, and thanks to a pissing contest between CBS (the network) and Paramount (the production company), CBS cancelled it after one of the cliff-hangeriest endings I've ever seen. I would resolve that cliffhanger stat, of course, and pick up right where we left off, so I'd also need a time machine because 16 years have passed. :-D It had mild sci-fi, action, romance up the wazoo, and just…tonally, cinematographically, acting-wise, there was nothing like it. Over the years I've seen it cut up (the original opening sequence was over 20 minutes long), chunks cut out that were crucial to the story, and there's apparently a DVD version with none of the amazing music they used (I don't even know if they allowed Dr. Morris to, when his human creation awakens for the first time, sing "Close to You"). It's just a travesty how badly this incredible show was treated, but if I could bring it back, I would treat it like my most precious baby.
December 28: anoel What are some of your favorite childhood books?
The weird thing about being this old--and having moved so much in my early life--is that I can't remember the names of the books anymore! When we were really little my sister and I were in the Weekly Readers Book Club, and we got monthly shipments of about ten books, five for sis_r and five for me. I remember one time getting so excited about our books being there, and Mom was on the phone, and us running around and around her while she tried to talk on the phone, getting wrapped up in the long phone cord, and my mom just losing her shit. After she hung up she told us we couldn't open the book box till later as punishment, so my sister picked up the phone (this was one of those heavy old '60s phones) and bopped me in the eye with the handset, pow, two black eyes and when we were finally allowed to look at our books, I couldn't read them. One of the books in the shipment was one of my favorites--all I remember is that it had a girl witch, and it was bright and colorful, but that's all I remember (I can't believe this: I found it! It's called The Witch of Hissing Hill and here's an Etsy seller with a copy. I don't think this has survived into the modern era, and one Etsy seller was even advocating tearing it up for scrapbooking needs, arg). I think another one that I loved dearly was in that shipment, or it could have been another time: Ping, the story about a little duck on the Yangtze River.
I wore out two copies of The Velveteen Rabbit--I read it so many times and I carried it everywhere I went, so both copies disintegrated in rainy Seattle, as you can imagine. I don't remember a lot of kid's books, because I was reading at such a high level that they let me go into the older kids' libraries and I wanted to scope out more "grown-up" books, so a great deal of what is really crucial to people I know from their experience reading it as a kid is lost on me, the little showoff, bad form Past Me you missed out on some cultural touchstones. I do remember that I'd loved Where the Wild Things Are and that I discovered what might be my actual favorite forever book in a section away from Maurice Sendak's other books because it was so "grim": Higglety Pigglety Pop: or, There Must Be More To Life. I…that book. It is just so creepy and weird and I loved it and I thought Jenny and I could have been the best of friends.
Later, in my pre-teens, I discovered this insanely creepy book about dreams kids have, where this photographer tried to re-create different children's dreams and most of them were these bizarre nightmarescapes. I checked that book out so many times from the local library that the librarian started making sarcastic notes on the checkout card. But once it was gone from that library, I was never able to find it again, and a few years ago I asked for help on MetaFilter and lo and behold, someone actually knew right away what the book was: The Dream Collector by Arthur Tress. One of these days I might still try to buy a copy of that, though some of them still make me shudder even as an adult.
Others I remember liking were the Danny Dunn series, and I think I loved reading Nancy Drew even though it frustrated the shit out of me with all the girly nonsense and the sexism back in the day. I read all the Hardy Boys, too--I often gravitated to books that were way, way too adult for me (Valley of the Dolls, anyone?) or they didn't like me reading because they were for boys, but I was interested in adventures and being free to do whatever you wanted, and there weren't a lot of titles back then for a kid like me.
- Current Mood: nostalgic
That's a tough one! Mostly because I'm not much of a re-reader. Sometimes I'll re-read portions of something, but I rarely will revisit an entire book (or at least, adult novel length pieces, I've been known to re-read comics or children's books many times). I'd say the contemporary novel I've read the most times is Michael Ondaatje's The English Patient. I fucking love that book above all his others, poetry or fiction, just because it's the most amazing blend of the two, and he weaves in World War 2 history (which is catnip to me) and different types of love stories and there's espionage and desert exploration and it just…ugh. It's so beautifully written and there's this thing he does at the end, where in one sentence he writes Kip in the past and in the future and I have never seen anything like that anywhere else.
Of the older novels I've re-read the most, I'd have to say The Three Musketeers & The Count of Monte Cristo, because I was always a big Dumas fan, and Persuasion, which I honestly think is Austen's best work and one of the best books ever written, period. Comics, I think I've re-read the Winter Soldier Captain America series so many times now it's sort of ridiculous, but I loved it before it was a movie, and I loved it more after it was a movie.
As for shows I'm watching…I'm not really into much lately where there's any shipping going on for me. A lot of the things I enjoy watching don't have any pairings I worry about, or the show is doing just fine with the characters as it is so I don't feel any pull toward pairings (like, I'm a bit disappointed that Jessica Jones and Luke Cage are apart, but then they gave me Misty Knight, so…). Plus, I'm not watching that much TV, at least not with any interest. Many of the shows I watch are just…there. I'd say the closest I can come to answering that would be Pitch--I get why people ship Ginny and Mike, and I salute them. I wouldn't exactly be disappointed if they did go there. But for me, the joy is in their friendship and mentor relationship, and I'd hate to see Ginny end up throwing her career away because of being involved with him, and you know she would be: she'd be pilloried for sleeping with the team captain, that would be all anyone would believe got her to the top and the first woman pitcher in MLB, and so I don't know that, as long as Mike's on the Padres still, I want to see that happen. Plus I just love their friendship dynamic; my two closest friends are men, and I just never get to see myself reflected in entertainment that way, it ALWAYS devolves into melodramatic romance, always. I mean, they were even going there in Sleepy Hollow before that imploded.
I would have loved to see where they went with Agent Carter, and of course find out who the hell her husband was. I feel like they sent us off believing it was Daniel, though of course he looks nothing like the photo she has on her nightstand in Captain America: the Winter Soldier. But the initial service history didn't match up (though someone said they retconed it?). Honestly, once they brought her in, Ana, and Jarvis were my OTP there. :-D I hated where they took some of that storyline (god, really, infertility once again? ptui!) but that doesn't mean I loved Ana and Jarvis any less.
Oh man--well, we'd have to do the obligatory tourist things like the Pike Place Market, because everyone wants to see that, and drive down to Mt. Rainier, and take a ferry across the sound. As much of a tourist destination as the Market is, it's really fascinating and is a huge part of Seattle's history, features some amazing views of Puget Sound, and has all these interesting little side places to look at, besides the usual things that people think of: the fish throwing market stalls, the cafes that have had movies filmed in them, all that stuff that people think about because they've seen Sleepless in Seattle or something. Many people go to Pioneer Square, the "old town" area, and love to do the Underground tour--a lot of Seattle was destroyed in the 1800s so they built on top of it, and the tour takes you through the areas that remain underneath Pioneer Square still. I've never been on the tour, weirdly, even though I've lived here most of my life. Everyone wants to ride to the top of the Space Needle, as well. But I feel like the mountains and the water are sort of necessary in some ways, because that's also what's informed this city's character--we're surrounded by water and many large and small lakes, bordered by mountains on the peninsula and in the middle of the state.
But I'd also want to take you to my neighborhood, West Seattle, because it's kind of eccentric in some ways, and it has the only real sandy beach in the area and it's really beautiful to walk along. It would be fun to take you to Fremont, where I used to live, because that's the funkiest part of town and has the famous statue of Lenin and the Troll (a cement troll that lives under the Aurora Bridge and has a VW Beetle clutched in his hand; it used to be a real Beetle till they had to cover it with cement too because people kept stealing parts off it) and beautiful art on the bridge. Capitol Hill is a pain in some ways, but it's also fun and has the most restaurants, I think, outside of downtown and there's always a good place to eat. Hopping on a ferry from many different points could take us to tons of different places like the Olympic Peninsula, some of the islands like Vashon or Bainbridge of best of all, Whidbey, or fun little places like Poulsbo or Gig Harbor.
We are very much a film city, though in some ways it's declined a bit in recent years, but it would be fun to take you to Scarecrow Video, and the film festival if you came to visit in later spring. We are also a reading city, and there are still some independent bookstores around, so going to those would be swell as I don't have a lot of opportunity these days. A lot of people want to visit the Rem Koolhaus designed downtown library, too--it's not my favorite place, I think the design is terrible, but many people love it a lot, so it's at least worth a visit. And frankly, I just love hangingin around downtown and don't get to much anymore, and so I'd love to take you to some fun restaurants, shops, and museums or cultural places.
ETA. I would also have to take you up to Vancouver to see all the film locations of shows you like, and then down to Portland for other show's locations, like the Librarians!
The Android story is just…OMG. Full of delicious puns and paper geekery and just…it's utter genius. GENIUS.
And someone took my love of Colin Shea from What's Your Number? and TJ Hammond from Political Animals and gave them a sex history together! I made a mention in my 2014 letter that I thought Colin could maybe switch teams for TJ and so this is aces.
I am sinking into and letting the 32K What's Your Number? fic unfold for me and I am really resenting like hell the fact that I have to work--I got two projects in this past week and could there be worse timing? I don't think so, because all I want to do is sink into this.
My story's not exactly going gangbusters, and my recipient still hasn't said anything (I guess I'm not surprised, all things considered). So I have the flop sweat, but whatever, I enjoyed thinking about it and talking about it with a couple people so that's what matters most, I guess.
Anyways. Look at my bounty, look:
You're Gonna See, It's Our Destiny (1534 words) by Anonymous
Fandom: Android "Rock Paper Scissors" Commercial
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Rock (character), Paper (character), Scissors (character)
Additional Tags: Friendship, Bullying, Friends to the Rescue
"You know in some way you're a lot like me/You're just a prisoner and you're tryin' to break free"
You Might Think I'm Crazy (32363 words) by Anonymous
Fandom: What's Your Number? (2011)
Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Ally Darling/Colin Shea
Characters: Ally Darling, Colin Shea, Daisy Darling, Ava Darling
Additional Tags: Established Relationship, Family Dynamics, Love, Bad Relationship Habits, Canon-Typical Sexual Content, Romance, Holidays, Canonical Terms For Genitalia, Actually Ever After
"Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking outward together in the same direction."
- Antoine de Saint-Exupéry
"Any way you want it/That's the way you need it"
full of light and sunshine (according to twitter) (1134 words) by Anonymous
Fandom: What's Your Number? (2011), Political Animals
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Ally Darling/Colin Shea
Characters: Thomas "T. J." Hammond, Colin Shea, Ally Darling
Additional Tags: Past Relationship(s), Yuletide Treat
"You had sex with the son of the first female President of the United States?"
"See?" said Colin. "If you'd just checked my Twitter, you'd know about these sorts of things."
- Current Mood: thankful
Man, I have no idea where they could end up, because in comics, there'll never really be an "end" since they always cycle back to keeping the characters in play, and in the MCU, it's dependent upon contracts, and Sebastian Stan has essentially six more movies on his but Chris Evans only has the one. And while he's been open about re-upping if they can come to terms, I feel like they don't really give a shit about him, that the only one they care about is Downey/Stark or fucking Spider-Man, so I don't know what would happen. If they made a stand-alone Winter Soldier movie, I don't know if they'd go the route of dead Steve and Bucky!Cap. I'd love it if they did Bucky!Cap if they did Commander Rogers, but...I just don't understand the choices the MCU people make anymore. It's really hard to get a sense of where they're going--but I also would love Nomad, so.
But if it were up to me, their happily ever after takes a lot of different forms: I'm just as happy to see them giving up the fight and living some quiet, small life together as I am Steve continuing to be Cap but Bucky giving up doing that and just being a house husband. Or Steve taking on some other kind of role, like Commander Rogers, to make a difference, or even if that just meant being a volunteer for something rather than as Captain America. And I also can see a case made for both of them as Avengers or Avengers adjacent, fighting because they were created to be supersoldiers and they feel it's the right thing to do.
Mostly I would want their HEA to be the two of them having fun in the 21st century. I'm not sure what could be repaired after the changes to canon in Civil War, but I'd love if they could have that created by choice family, and enjoying that, and each other, for a really long time--whatever they choose to do.
I used to actually write stories, sometimes on paper, sometimes just in my head, for my favorite shows and movies when I was little. The first thing like this I know of I wrote when I was five--a little Hound of the Baskervilles remix, I suppose you could call it, of the Mickey Mouse and Goofy version. We found it when we were going through my mom's things after she died, and I laughed my ass off because…wow, even though I didn't know about this kind of fandom till I was in my twenties, apparently I was a little fanfic writing fangirl as a child.
I also still have the record albums my sister and I wrote all over with ballpoint pen--the first two Monkees albums; we put hearts and stars and shit all around the names of the guys we liked best (she was a Davey Jones girl, I went for Mike and Mickey). I was fucking obsessed with that series, and their music, I really was. I still love it, unironically, unashamedly. If we'd had internet then, I would absolutely have been following them on social media, and buying all the weird merch, and going to shows, and whatever else was out there. As it was all we had was Tiger Beat and 16 magazines, so I had to get my fixes there.
I also would have been writing fanfic and vidding, I'm sure, for this incredibly obscure western called Laredo. No one knows about it, but for some reason my sister and I were obsessed with it, which was difficult because my mother pretty much banned westerns from our television--my sister and I wanted to watch Bonanza and the Rifleman and stuff like that, but my mom had this deepseated antipathy toward any show where anyone used the words "ma" or "pa" and so it was rare for us to be able to watch those things. There was very little written about it, and I think we found it after it had gone off the air and was being shown in reruns on a Saturday afternoon or something--that was the one time Mom wasn't dictating what we could watch, so I think that was how we found it.
It was a strange show, in that it was tonally different from anything else you'd find on TV then--not quite a dramedy, but definitely a comedic hour-long series. The two main characters were complete hotasses, and even my young self was wide-eyed at William Smith's pecs and biceps and traps, and he wore pants that rivaled Jim West's in tightness, BUCKSKIN pants that were deliciously tight, and he had that Chris Evans Dorito shoulder to waist ration. So much of the series makes me cringe now, the racism and the sexism and all of that '60s era shit, but man, little me loved it, and I'd have been all over fan sites if I could have.
There were a lot of things I was actively fannish about without even knowing that a thing like fandom existed--my walls were littered with the pullout posters from Tiger Beat (sigh, David Cassidy), I'd write in for giant posters of actors like Paul Newman, and I collected clippings in scrapbooks and stuff. I was a budding film buff as young as ten, so I was starting to research movies and collect things about them, and the movie stars, and the musicians I liked. I think that's why I know I'm never going to be able to fully disinvest from fandom--I've been this way my whole damn life, without even knowing that such a life existed.
ETA: Did anyone else get a kudos email today from AO3? Man, I finally have some kudos and I still don't get an email even when I have some! I'm used to going days and days without any kudos, but it would have been a nice thing today except that there's been no sign of one, it's almost midnight, and I can't find anything about it on the twitter feed so I assume everything's fine.
Unfortunately a lot of the vids I love most aren't available online or streaming because they come from the old VCR vidding days. A few are, but I have a lot of fondness for many of them because flashy technique has never been what I'm interested in--I'm really into narratives, for the most part, and since we didn't have tech to use, the focus was always squarely on story. A lot of what people go crazy for these days leaves me cold because there's no feeling that I get from it, it's all about style over substance (or it's a lot of spoken dialog and score music layered over vid music and that drives me batshit, because it's never equalized).
One of the first vids I ever saw was Deejay's Too Long a Soldier for The Professionals and it still is a huge fave, because it's such a great narrative about who Bodie is and how operating in that world of violence makes him act. Plus it introduced me not just to vids but to outside (the show's) source in a vid. I also still really love Jo's Ebben? Ne Andro Lontana vid for Band of Brothers, and not just because I suggested the song and it was the impetus for our first vid collection--but because it painted a picture of Band of Brothers in a really haunting way. It was almost like a literal painting, just in moving pictures. And Full of Grace, Morgan Dawn and Justine's Due South vid, might be my favorite vid of all time or at least in my top two, because it's one of the most gorgeous, tragic, affecting portraits of a character I've ever seen. (There's a link to it here! http://archiveofourown.org/works/897291
Motorcycle Drive-By from Lynn (at JKL, I think, on pteropus.com) is a huge favorite for a similar reason--it's just such a perfect marriage of song and subject and describes Spike and his hopeless love for Buffy in the most deliciously sad way. I think I wore out two tape copies of it back in the day, I watched it so often. Oh! And of course, I adore Dante's Prayer because it's incredible, but there was also a vid that Killa and T. Jonesy made around the same time called Bleed to Love Her that I am the biggest fan of, it's an amazing story of what Kirk is willing to sacrifice for the Enterprise, sob.
Some newer vids that I love include AbsoluteDestiny's vid that he made for me in the Vividcon auction a few years ago, for the movie The Navigator, that he called Death and the Navigator (his vids are here but I believe this one's being blocked, grrrr), and the other day on my tumblr I reblogged a vid from last year's Festivids for The Martian to Under Pressure, because I'd been telling people how much I adored it and how much it affected me. It's just a great fusion of story and song, where it's not simply retelling the movie's story but giving us a deeper look into that story.
Those are all off the top of my head; I'm sure if I went through some con playlists and stuff I'd find a lot more, but my head's in a bunch of different places tonight so I'm not remembering everything, I know.
You know, that's actually a really hard question to answer. I had to think about it quite a bit, because I tend to either make the vids I want to see most or write the stories with the ideas I like best. I mean, this is one of the few fandoms I've been in where there's a lot of good fic that's pretty representative of what I'd like to read, which is rare since I'm so fucking picky, but I still have to write the ideas I like most of all more often than not because no one else is doing them. And I hate that; I'd much, much rather read something than write it myself.
Someone wrote a story for the big bang that's about the Ghost Army in WWII and I look forward to reading that (though I'm always trepidatious about reading historical pre- and war-era fiction in this fandom because so many people get so much of it wrong and that just drives me batshit, especially the war OMG it's horrible). I'd been contemplating a story based around the Ghost Army, and it's nice to know now I don't have to waste my time writing something no one will read. I'd love to have someone do the WWII fic with the bonus appearance of Band of Brothers' Easy Company so that I don't have to spend so much time with my references and plotting and shit, but I know it's not gonna happen. And I've never in my life written a true AU, but I think all the time about how fucking cute a Desk Set AU (minus all the gross period politics) with Steve and Bucky could be--Steve in the head researcher Kate Hepburn role, Bucky in the computer guy efficiency expert Spencer Tracey role, lots of banter and sexual tension. If someone wrote that I'd be so happy.
I wish someone else would make the vid I was talking about the other day! There've actually been a lot of vids to songs I wanted to see or themes/stories, since Winter Soldier even came out, but I haven't liked most of them--they've been wildly popular, but for whatever reason I thought they were not done well and that was really disappointing. I know that these days using the same song as someone else isn't the bad form it used to be in olden tymes, but I just can't see doing those songs or concepts again, so I'm always going to be a bit disappointed by that--it's like the thing I want is so close and yet so far.
You know, I'm really a sucktastic cook. I built this whole amazing kitchen with these plans to learn to cook better, and...that never happened. I never got any better at it. I wanted to be a baker, but I'm just a freaking disaster at it.
When I did the remodel, though, my dad gave me a KitchenAid stand mixer with an ice cream attachment, and a few years ago I was making ice cream a lot. I wasn't especially good at it, more often than not there was one thing that was off a bit in it, it was never as good as I wanted it to be. One of the favorite recipes I tried was a Persimmon and Black Pepper Syrup Ice Cream--the persimmons were still a bit too astringent in the end, but it was almost good, and the black pepper syrup gave it a really interesting kick. This is a similar recipe to what I used:
1 1/2 teaspoons whole black peppercorns
1 cup water
3/4 cup sugar
1/4 teaspoon (scant) salt
8 large ripe Hachiya persimmons, halved, seeded
1 cup chilled heavy whipping cream
Heat heavy small skillet over medium heat. Add whole black peppercorns; toast until fragrant and beginning to smoke, stirring often, about 3 minutes. Transfer to small bowl to cool. Coarsely crush peppercorns in mortar with pestle, or place peppercorns in resealable plastic freezer bag, and seal; crush with mallet.
Transfer crushed peppercorns to small saucepan. Add 1 cup water, sugar, and scant 1/4 teaspoon salt. Bring to boil, stirring until sugar dissolves. Boil mixture until reduced to 1 cup, about 4 minutes. Refrigerate until cold. DO AHEAD: Black pepper syrup can be made 1 day ahead. Cover and keep refrigerated.
Scoop persimmon flesh from skins into blender. Puree until smooth. Measure 2 cups puree for making ice cream, reserving any remaining puree for another use. Cover and chill puree until cold, about 2 hours.
Strain black pepper syrup into large bowl. Whisk in 2 cups persimmon puree and cream. Process in ice cream maker according to manufacturer's instructions. Transfer ice cream to container, cover, and freeze. DO AHEAD: Can be made 1 day ahead. Keep frozen.
And I used to, every year, make these anise cookies with my dad from a recipe that came down from my mom's German family. It's...huge and my dad used his math skilz to first halve it and then quarter it and it still made ginormous batches that we gave to everyone until I found out that no one else except mlyn liked them--our cousins hated them, my friends hated them...
They were a pain in the ass to make, it uses molasses and so much flour and I seem to remember shortening, though I haven't made it since Dad died, but I loved the anise flavor with the molasses and the walnuts, and the ancient cookie cutters we had in my family for a million years were awesome too. You had to have lots of room, to cool and ice all the cookies and let them dry before you could stack them in containers. (If anyone wants the recipe I could try to type it up.)
Oh man, so many things, honestly, but they are all things I need to be far more competent for, and to know how to use AfterEffects and be able to figure out how to use Premiere, which bewilders me, and get it to actually function the way that it supposedly does for apparently everyone else except me.
One of the few things that isn't oriented solely to technology and a specific program is using stills. I have this vid I've been trying to make since 2014 that I can't seem to actually make (partly it's a problem with lack of video, which I'd hoped Civil War would rectify but...not so much), partly it's a problem of finding the narrative, but on occasion I've been trying to re-examine it as a stills-focused vid, or at least stills heavy. I don't know if you remember a Sentinel vid back in the day that was nothing but stills of the series set to a Sarah McLachlan song, but soooorta like that. I mean, not exactly, and not like the original songvid slideshows of the earliest days of fan vids, but doing a sort of collage effect in a way, building a narrative through still shots rather than just using them to illustrate a word or line.
And not to be grandiose because I'm definitely not pretending to be Chris Marker, but I loved that storytelling approach in La Jetee, that lingering effect you get with still images over music or words, that hazy, dreamlike state. Or it might work well to use the stills for choruses and have verses be in the active motion clips, I don't know, because I haven't tried noodling with it yet. (Insert offer for anyone who'd want to team up and work with me on this here.)
Anyways, she's also relatively new to both Stucky fandom and podficcing, so if you wouldn't mind showing her some love, I'd really appreciate it; she hasn't really heard anything except from me, and I'd love to encourage her to consider doing more, I think everyone benefits from more fanworks, you know?
[Podfic] I can’t remember how this started (but I can tell you exactly how it ends) (31 words) by kiwikero
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Brock Rumlow, Sam Wilson (Marvel)
Additional Tags: Groundhog Day, Time Loop, Temporary Character Death, Podfic, Podfic Length: 1-1.5 Hours, Audio Format: MP3
“And this is the thing, Steve. I would rather relive this day for eternity than watch them win and you die, or see you be enslaved to them the way I was.”
Ha ha ha ha. I mean, I'm so fucking old that I can't remember half the TV shows I loved when I was a kid. I suppose the easiest answer would be Spock, but I honestly don't think that happened until a bit later, when I was thinking in terms of characterization and tropes and all that metatextual stuff that I didn't examine for a long time. And I'm gonna cut off at the mid-'70s for the definition of old here, because I just don't want to include things like The Professionals and other major fandoms the came after I found media fandom as a lifestyle choice.
I think if I had to pick one, and I don't go for the obvious Star Trek choices because that's the show that's come down through history as THE old TV show for everything, it might be Samantha from Bewitched. I always thought Elizabeth Montgomery was just the shit and I thought she was so cool in a sophisticated, actressy way, I suppose, and I wanted to be like her so much. And a lot of that image was probably due to the Samantha character--she was married to an idiot who patronized her and didn't want her to be what she really was, and my little proto-feminist heart identified with that so much; I was outraged on her behalf and the words feminism and women's lib had never even been uttered outside of intellectual and academic circles at that point in history. She was willing to sacrifice and only use her magic when she had to because she loved a mortal guy, and I love a good love story, but I never once understood why anyone would love Darrin. Either actor who played him--he was a perfect example of white male patriarchal entitlement, and it spread its oily hooks into her mother, who was this delicious agent of chaos, and Serena, who was an even bigger, more delish agent of chaos. Because she looked like Samantha and was also played by super cool Elizabeth Montgomery! He was constantly at war with them, they knew he was beneath Sam, and I just…I was so awed by that.
I actually hate villians and agents of chaos, but the fact that I confusingly loved Endora and Serena meant, I think, that I appreciated Sam's calm and capability and common sense even more. I'm sure that had a lot to do with the person I became as I grew up--my friends called me Mom because I was usually the only one who had any fucking common sense, but I was deceptively responsible and "good" and hid really well the fact that I was always coming up with plans and schemes that were totally forbidden and getting my friends into situations they could be in serious trouble for and just generally being a Naughty Girl. Samantha and Endora and Serena were role models without me even understanding they were. I also thought that whole advertising world, parties and swinging midcentury modern lifestyle was pretty cool, though I often couldn't grok why, when she could twitch her nose and be anywhere she wanted to be doing anything she wanted to, Samantha chose to be a housewife. It's such a perfect encapsulation of that post-war life, isn't it? Women stayed home and made babies and tended house, they wanted us to believe that was the only way the world worked, and they lauded the profession of advertising, selling us stuff we didn't need to become a consumerist culture and Darrin's boss being obsessed with profit--and there was this woman who could transcend all that yet chose not to because reasons. It was frustrating, even if I couldn't understand why, but also really fascinating and subversive.
I loved the witchcraft-wielding people around her because they were chic and wild and entertaining and flamboyant and Samantha, while exasperated by them all, clearly loved them. If it had been even halfway true to what women really are like and not some patriarchal white guy view of what women are supposed to be, Samantha would never have given up being with them, because they were so fucking fun. Even though I didn't know what a gay person was--and no one in my life believed they did, either, back then--I recognized that Uncle Arthur was not what he seemed, not "average" in the way most men I knew were, and Dr. Bombay, her dad, Maurice, all those people were just…they were the societal shifts that were happening in the mid to late '60s and '70s, right there on my TV. Sam was young and hip even though she married a square who demanded she not be herself, she was surrounded by these insane people, she was smart and collected and had special powers…damn, I just adored Samantha Stephens.
Also, the coolest of credits.
- Current Mood: nostalgic
You know, it's weird how much I had to think about this, since my default lately is simply STEVEANDBUCKYOMG4EVA!!! But Civil War really threw a monkey wrench in things for me--it was really obvious, between the first trailer and the beginnings of the press for it, where we were treated to things like the Russos saying "Stucky fans will be very happy" and numerous publications writing about how clearly not just friends Bucky and Steve are (and that if we lived in a better world, they would be allowed to be in a romantic relationship), the Disney/Marvel honchos got into a big gay panic and put the kibosh on the hoyay. Chris Evans even confirmed that most of the truncated and heavily edited bits were the bits between him and Sebastian.
And that tag felt like…punishment, for Bucky, which the writers have actually said out loud, that Bucky was guilty and I don't even know how to unpack such a tone-deaf statement from the people who gave us so much good stuff with him previously--but it also felt like punishment for us. Like they were wagging their fingers at us and telling us to stop talking about them like they're gay for each other. I hate that tag so much it's just been really hard for me to find a way in to write anything post-CW, and while there's certainly 90 percent more functional Bucky to vid with, it's still a challenge because they made such a point of keeping them physically apart, and keeping Steve's helmet on. The tag also felt like it was tacked on at the last minute, as part of that memo to PLEASE STOP WITH THE GAY TALK. Keep them separated, the same way they do in the comics, where they pine for each other and talk about each other relentlessly but only spend time with each other once in a while and they are very straight they have girlfriends please shut up thank you very much.
So what I love most about them right now is hard because it's wrapped up in all the stuff I'm actually really angry about, and I'm having trouble separating that. Most of what I've tried to write lately is stories that are separate from the new canon, even if they're set post-Winter Soldier, because that's kind of the only place I can be happy. I don't mind thinking of Steve being Nomad, because I love me some Nomad, he's adorable and hilarious and so earnest, but I definitely don't like thinking of the MCU Bucky being separate from Steve, as the Man on the Wall like he's been in comics recently or leading Thunderbolts, or sometimes even Bucky!Cap, because that'd mean Steve's gone completely from his life. If he's going to be Bucky!Cap, I just want it to be because Steve's also fighting, just in some other way than as Cap specifically. (I love thinking of the comics Bucky in Thunderbolts with Kobik, being a reluctant but pretty good dad, as a possibility for the story in MCU, I just don't want it separate from Steve.)
I love them trying to get on with their lives, to find a place together and figuring out who they are in the modern world. That never ever gets old for me, honestly, their struggle to fit in here, that they are really the only people in the world with shared life experience. Most of what I write certainly focuses on that, and I feel like the development of who they are in this world is an endlessly deep well we can mine (Marvel won't, but fan writers can). I love them being domestic and fucking shopping for curtains because they never had that chance before and now they can live a life together. I want them having tons of great sex if that's what they want, or none if they don't want it, and eating sandwiches and drinking good coffee and discovering what to them might be weird new foods. And having a great time with their new found family of friends. I love them because they're astoundingly resilient, considering everything they've been through, and they're strong and they will get through the really bad days.
So I guess that's what I love about them, in spite of Civil War's best efforts to kill my passion. In the midst of all the crap around them, they are strong, and they offer some hope, and they find a way to keep going, and I find that encouraging.
- Current Mood: contemplative
If you have any questions I can answer for the dates, I'd love to have them!
December 16: kass What do you love most about Steve and Bucky right now?
December 17: dine which is your favourite character from an old TV show, and why?
December 19: cesperanza what is something you've always wanted to do in a vid that you haven't done yet? (I'm thinking of form, but if it's musical or fannish, that's okay too)
December 20: musesfool any favorite dessert recipes?
December 21: ranalore Is there a Steve/Bucky vid or fic you'd prefer to watch or read that you haven't run across yet?
December 22: anoel What are some of your favorite vids and why? Are there any patterns in what makes you love a vid?
December 23: sholio If you had been in fandom when you were a kid, what shows would you have been fanning on, and what kinds of things would you have looked up for them?
December 24: kore where do you see Steve and Bucky ending up eventually? Or if that's too vague, what would be your idea of a Steve and Bucky HEA?
December 25: kass If I could come and visit you where you live, where would you take me / what would we do?
December 26: grammarwoman What book(s) have you re-read the most? & Of the shows you're watching now, list a few OTPs and NOTPs. Or if TPs aren't your thing, plots you're hoping for and against.
December 27: kirbyfest If there was a cancelled TV show you could bring back, which would you pick? With the same cast (this is a fantasy, so pretend this is totally possible even if someone has passed away), or rebooted with a new cast?
December 28: anoel What are some of your favorite childhood books?
December 29: daria234 What editing choices in your vids are you most proud of? Pick 1-3 and explain why. No self-deprecating allowed :)
December 30: sineala You've been in fandom a while. Is there something you miss from the olden days of fandom that no one does anymore? Or is there something that fandom does or has now that you wish you'd had way back when?
December 31: reginagiraffe What your favorite hors d'oeuvre to make and/or eat?
Oh wow, so many cool questions, you guys! Thank you--this will definitely help keep my mind off how depressing the holidays can be now. Keep 'em coming!
- Current Mood: curious
It was too late to change it when I realized that I hadn't used my actual full writing name, so I added a pseudonym with the full name. I hate that it's always "gwyneth rhys (gwyneth)" when I share new uploads and stuff, but that's my punishment for being a moron and having a stupid brain. But now I find myself in a really confusing situation and I don't know the answer so I turn to you, oh flist.
I went in to check my Yuletide assignment once we got the notice that the assignments had been restored from the snafu the other day, and I noticed that I still had seven fanworks that were only showing up in my default pseud, gwyneth, and not in my gwyneth rhys list of fanworks--I was probably asleep at the wheel and didn't choose the alternate pseud when I posted them. So I fixed that, and then…realized that under my default gwyneth pseud, I had 0 fanworks listed. The only things showing up on the Dashboard page were my bookmarks.
Yikes, says I, does that mean that if someone searches on my main pseud name, all they'll see is a page listing 0 Works? That if, say, someone read one of the comments I'd left on their fic, and decided to check me out (I know, but I'm being hypothetical here), all they'd see is a listing of my bookmarks and 0 Works? So the 145 Works I have currently up there are not visible unless they actually pulled down the list of pseuds?
I don't actually understand how this works, and that's what I see when I tested it out--that it looks as if I had 0 Works now listed on my default pseud Dashboard, which it goes to if I follow a link from that name. But I don't know if that's because I'm logged in, so I'm seeing all my available information, but a person who's not me would see something different. I fear I've cocked this up by re-pseudifying all my existing works on AO3.
I mean, I'm assuming that if someone just follows a link to a vid or story, they'd be able to get to the main page of my Works by clicking on the "by" link there. But if they were coming in from some different link, does it just end up looking like I have nothing there?
I hate my stupid brain sometimes--I'm driving an old model that you can't get parts for anymore and it doesn't work well in this modern age.
(My subject line refers to a class I took in college, a higher level public relations and advertising course where we were studying propaganda and things like that, and one of the students asked the prof one day, "I wanted to know what a puh-swaydo event was," and the whole class just face-palmed.)
- Current Mood: stoopit
I'm liking the slightly lower weight of the new Air I got, but the narrower sides make it annoying to hold when I'm reading in bed. Though that's definitely made up for by the fact that this one allows me to set it to a warm orange screen at night--I know I was seriously affecting my already incredibly terrible sleep issues with that blue screen at night, but that's the one time I had to read fic, so…it's not quite as nice as fLux, which I wish was available for Apple devices, but I do appreciate this feature probably more than almost anything else about it.
These Long and Better Days To Come (33480 words) by gwyneth rhys
Fandom: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence
Relationships: James "Bucky" Barnes/Steve Rogers
Characters: James "Bucky" Barnes, Steve Rogers, Thor (Marvel), Sam Wilson, Natasha Romanov, Tony Stark, Clint Barton
Additional Tags: Non-Serum Steve Rogers/Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes | Shrinkyclinks, De-Serumed Steve Rogers, Winter Soldier Bucky Barnes, Impostors, Remote Cabin in the Woods, Non-Linear Narrative, Time-Trippyness, Time Shifts/Time Slips, This Hydra benefits package really sucks
He had forgotten what curiosity could feel like. Whoever the impostor was, he’d need help, and this team might not be equipped to find him. Bucky had been a soldier, once. Competent and skilled. The best, they’d said. Something inside him rose up from dormancy, came alive at the thought. He was a soldier once and he knew how to do this: where to go, how to get in. Skills that were his unique gift.
- Current Mood: depressed
Give me a character, and I'll tell you:
Idea for a story
I'm familiar with an awful lot of media out there, but I can't promise all the answers to something I'm not really into--though you can certainly try!
- Current Mood: apathetic