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I hate the fannish cupid

Wow, we had an amazing thunderstorm last night around midnight, right over my house at one point. It's never like that -- the lightning is usually over the water, down the hill from me, or over east toward the Cascades, so having it right on top of us was a trip. I watched it for over an hour, and the cats were like, "What the fuck?"ing all over the place, but I was very excited. I loooove lightning from a safe distance. Poor Mr. Blues, though -- he'd just started getting back to his normal self after all the fireworks on the 4th, and still spooks a little too easily, and last night just kind of sealed the deal. I'm not sure how soon he's going to be back to normal.

I half expected Thor to arrive with it. Which is my segue into my subject line. So, I have no idea how this happened, but I've become quite smitten with Loki, specifically Tom Hiddleston's face. At first I didn't get why people were so enamored of him, but, and I guess it must be Tumblr and all the endless gifs of his face or something, but I'm all madly in love with him now, like fannish cupid has hit me with an arrow and I am quite unhappy about this! Because a) I didn't really want this to be a big fandom for me, super large fandoms scare me, and b) I don't get Loki at all, and I don't like that kind of character. I don't like maliciousness for the sake of malice, I don't generally like sociopathic behavior, and murderers are not an appealing type of character to me. I especially dislike villains who want to rule the world or enslave everyone or destroy the world or whatnot...that's always struck me as the lamest type of idea, and that's what superhero comics villains are usually all about.

So imagine my quandary. But his faaaaace. I love his ridiculous flip hairstyle in Avengers, and his absurd outfit and helmet (and I wondered all throughout Thor if anyone in Asgard ever wears, like, casual Friday clothes or anything, because they're always strutting around in leather and armor and full metal gowns and breastplates, and man that would be uncomfortable -- doesn't anyone ever just chill in godlike sweats and a t-shirt?), but mostly his huuuuge eyes and haunted gaze and his very large Chicklet teeth. Why? Why, fannish cupid, have you done this to me? Also, I really didn't like his character in Wallander and his hair was terrible, and so I kind of dismissed him long ago, and people should not suddenly bounce back into your interests like that. They should stay put. (Also, no I will never watch War Horse.)

So now I guess it's official that I love everyone in Avengers, sigh. Large fandoms with huuuuuge back story and canon really worry me -- I'd love to write, but I don't know enough to know if I'd just be doing something already done, and I can't wade through lots of fic because I don't have enough time to read my work, as it is. Bleh. I suppose I'm going to have to get icons.

Fitness training continues apace. My IT band is really problematic. I feel really unmotivated and I have to leave in about a half hour for today's session, and I really battled that on Friday. I'm not sure what to do -- I guess I'm already tired of it. I have to keep focusing on that dress for VVC and my clothes closet and being able to sit at my computer.

Here's two very different types of heliconia at the McBryde Garden:
Heliconia
Heliconia

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amnisias
Jul. 9th, 2012 09:34 pm (UTC)
Just sending a bit of encouragement and cheer your way. Clothes are VERY GOOD motivators in my experience. So, well done if you got yourself out the door today. And if not: Try again next time, one slip up does not mean fell of the wagon!
gwyn_r
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:20 am (UTC)
I asked today if this ever got any easier. They said yes, but then we up the ante on the workouts. Gah. I think I have a looooong road ahead! But if I can fit into things, yeah. I have amazing clothes that I haven't worn for years.
sdwolfpup
Jul. 10th, 2012 04:47 am (UTC)
Think of it this way: at least you're in a fandom where you have all the people you want to squee with! Instead of a fandom where there's so few people you feel like you're bothering them every time you need to talk to someone. /over-identifying *cough*
gwyn_r
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:21 am (UTC)
I know, right? (As we both shake our heads over PB) I'm actually writing fic, SDW. I'm writing fic. WTF????
cesperanza
Jul. 10th, 2012 03:56 pm (UTC)
Oh Gwyn, I feel you! But it's OK! Give innnnn....give iinnnnnnn. Plus now there's Shakespeare!
gwyn_r
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:23 am (UTC)
I know! I DLed a torrent but it won't play, it's just greyed out, so I tried to find another one... I HAVE to see this.

I am actually writing fic. With Loki. I kind of can't believe this. I don't know who I am anymore.
cesperanza
Jul. 12th, 2012 02:37 am (UTC)
I hereby dedicate my and astolat's VVC vid to you. You'll know what I mean when you see it. You have ALL MY SYMPATHIES. <3 <3 <3
cythna
Jul. 12th, 2012 08:39 am (UTC)
I haven't seen Thor or the Avengers, but I did see Henry IV part one on Sunday, and I'm in love with Prince Henry! Anyone feel like writing any Hal fic? Hiddlestone is fantastic in the play I think, and I can't wait for part 2. "I know you not, old man!" sob.

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