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Wow. I totally fucked that up. I was reminding myself all day that VVC reg was tonight at 9, and then what did I do? Forgot all about it. I was working for a while and then I went to lie down and get some things off the Tifaux and came back at almost 11 and it was all full. No idea if I'll get in but then no idea if I will be able to afford to go this year anyway. I suppose being low on the waitlist will solve my dilemma, and it's not really like anyone's going to notice or care if I'm not there.

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Last night's Flashpoint made me so very very happy! Everything I love about the show was at the forefront, and the things I don't like about it were in the background.


I think fan_eunice said it best and I wholeheartedly agree that if I ever flip my pancakes and take a hostage at gunpoint, I want them to send Greg Parker to negotiate me. He is just... so amazing. He knew all along that Stan had something else going on, and he was determined to help him -- not just because it's Greg's job to end it all with everyone safe, but because he genuinely understands and cares. He knows that most of us are about a valium away from doing something stupid, and his patience and kindness to even the worst of humanity is just so... augh. It makes me all sniffly.

And I loved his scenes with the new chick -- that he needed her to see that these people weren't the enemy. These people are them, minus the coping skills. I love the new chick, btw, but now I am all scared -- I want Jules back in the worst way, but... I really want them to keep her too. I loved that all the guys were just bowled over by her and badgering Greg to put her on the team. But I also really want Jules back and a chance to see her coping with what happened to her. I really don't want that to be the end of the shooting; I need to see the repercussions on her (and please let it be about her and not about her and Sam, for fuck's sake).

But then... Lew!! He totally figured out the plan to save everyone! Go Lew!! And then ED LANE. Oh, Ed, how are you so awesome? You are the awesomest dude in Awesomeville. His little backstory about his family, and the connection he made with that guy, and that guy realizing that Ed was being honest with him about understanding... and that he was doing it for his friend!! Wah. Yeah, that really got to me. And how Ed homed in on it all being about his friend, about helping Stan get some kind of payback or whatever... oh, Ed. I love you so much. I want to have your little sniper babies.

That's the thing I love about Flashpoint -- it's a lot like many of the shows I've gotten hooked on that, even if they're procedurals, have an element of family and cohesion and love about them. Ed is that guy who brings coffee to the three guys who took over an office building at gunpoint. Greg is that guy who says a hostage taker is "having a really bad day" and means that without sarcasm, just a way of getting people to understand the stakes regular people are dealing with. The show has this humanity about it and when it transcends the sometimes '70s-TV cliches it often has, it's just so affecting. It isn't just about having the coolest guns and the tech toys and the gear porn. It's about them helping to save lives and change the way things are going in the worst possible scenarios.

Oh, team. Oh, Ed and Greg. Oh, Jules. I love you all so much! It may not be the most sophisticated show ever, but it's one of the most human I've ever watched, and I love it so much. When I was making my vid for it, my favorite part of the song was the repeating phrase "it's the only moment that counts/ is right now/ is right now" and using clips of people holding their loved ones or showing someone they care about them. That's really the core of this show, and last night made me love it something fierce.

Cutest thing I heard this week was on a making-of for 3:10 to Yuma on HBO, where Ben Foster, who plays Charlie, talks about how he had never ridden a horse before, and early on he was black and blue all down his legs and butt -- "it was like I had chaps" and he was just lying NAKED in his hotel room, whimpering and crying. It was so funny, especially since Peter Fonda prompted him for that and then sat there laughing while he said it.

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destina
Mar. 1st, 2009 08:19 am (UTC)
I would notice and care. :)
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:29 am (UTC)
Aw, thank you. Hugs you and your new house.
keerawa
Mar. 1st, 2009 08:23 am (UTC)
Eeep! I was hoping you'd be one of the handful of people I know there! *clings* The way you describe it makes me really look forward to watching 'Flashpoint' when it comes out on DVD. Family and team are two of the things that really draw me to a show.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:32 am (UTC)
I think you will enjoy it, then, if that sort of thing floats your boat. And the show sites talk all the time about how Ed is in conflict because his work and work family take over his life and so things are tense at home, but honestly, they're not tenser than anyone who carries a lot on his shoulders -- his family is also a big part of the story and everyone I know loves Mrs. Ed and Ed jr. too. It's just such a... big hearted show. I have no idea, unfortunately, when they will be releasing the first season dvds. CTV is just sucktastic about their shows on disc, and honestly, CBS is not much better, so the poor show has to fight two networks in two countries!
deejay
Mar. 1st, 2009 10:02 am (UTC)
I would notice and cry. With Abby now gone, the loss of even more friendly support would be most tearsome.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:33 am (UTC)
Yeah, it's really hard to think of VVC without Abby. Maybe that's one silver lining, is not having to be there the first year she's gone.
kirbyfest
Mar. 1st, 2009 03:21 pm (UTC)
Oh, stop. There are plenty of people who would notice and care, and I'm one of them.

It's not a long waitlist, and people always have to back out.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:36 am (UTC)
It seems like the people who would notice are the people I'm so far away from, I guess because that's the only time we see each other. What's stinging right now is knowing I wouldn't even have a roomie because the person I would usually room with has kind of thrown me over. And I can't do it without sharing that cost. I guess to tell the truth I'm feeling very lonely and down right now, and not getting reg'd just sort of made me feel even more outside of things than I already did. It's probably for the best, because I can't really afford it. I'm at the very bottom, so I honestly don't know what will happen.
kirbyfest
Mar. 2nd, 2009 03:51 am (UTC)
Well, you're on the list, so see what happens. You never know.

(And room spaces always seem to become available.)
jackiekjono
Mar. 1st, 2009 03:54 pm (UTC)
I would definately miss your being there. And low on the waitlist means that only a couple of people have to elope to Fiji or discover that they will be giving birth that weekend in order for you to get in.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:37 am (UTC)
I'm sort of way at the bottom as of today, so I don't think there will be a dozen people bowing out, but stranger things have happened. It seems like we're all getting hit by the economy, anyway, and I've been poor for a long time, so it's probably for the best. Still. Sad.
jackiekjono
Mar. 2nd, 2009 04:33 am (UTC)
Lierdumoa was 22 on the list last year and she got in.
morgandawn
Mar. 3rd, 2009 06:48 am (UTC)
nods, and because of the economy there will be people who will have to cancel for various job reasons. not that that is a good thing....
jackiekjono
Mar. 4th, 2009 11:26 pm (UTC)
I'm trying not to think about the economy. It occured to me the other day that out of myself, my three brothers and my two sisters-in-law, that I am the only one with a job.

My job involves trying to convince people to pay their child care bills.

This is starting to get really weird.
anoel
Mar. 1st, 2009 05:21 pm (UTC)
Awww no I would totally notice and miss you :( I really hope you make it in!
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:38 am (UTC)
Me too. I'm not holding my breath though -- to be honest, a dozen people defaulting? At VVC? It's possible, but... unlikely! though maybe our SuperPrez will fix everything by July. ;-)
fan_eunice
Mar. 1st, 2009 05:40 pm (UTC)
Oh, no! *crosses all fingers and toes and other available appendages for your being bumped up to attending*

I would so very notice and care if you weren't there. We could flip out and take the VVC llama hostage, and then they'd send Greg to talk us down, and Ed would bring us coffee, because a llama once bit him and he FEELS OUR PAIN, and it would be AWESOME.

So, see, you have to come.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:40 am (UTC)
That would be totally totally awesome. And then maybe when they've fixed the situation, they would give us foot rubs. And Ed could play guitar and sing to us!
jackiekjono
Mar. 4th, 2009 11:14 pm (UTC)
And then he would challenge Eunice to a game of Guitar Hero and she would win.
therienne
Mar. 1st, 2009 06:31 pm (UTC)
Pfffft. You are a lunatic, thinking that.

We are not going this year (Me, M & M that is) sadly. It was not a not getting regged in time thing, it was a determination of funds in advance and the decision to skip a year and recoup. I am v. sad, but sucking it up, because the house needs a new electrical panel, and they are laying people off at my work left and right.

You can always hop a plane and come here instead, have a mini-con with us! It's actually very nice here that time of year -- well, okay, a little hot... but nice! And we have a grill!

merryish
Mar. 1st, 2009 07:49 pm (UTC)
We do have a grill, and we know how to use it!

Well, therienne knows how to use it, and that's good enough for me. =)
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:45 am (UTC)
I dunno, I'm having this picture of you grilling, and managing flames, and it's... really funny! That might be worth flying out for, dude.
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:44 am (UTC)
Oh, man, seriously -- if you guys aren't there, that's almost an incentive to hope I don't make it in, because it would just not be the same without you at all. I would be totally lost. You guys have saved my sanity completely the past few years with your general coolness and sweetness and room-hanging-out.

I know that I can't really afford it, anyways, and I'm feeling really sad and down lately about lack of friendships and people kind of abandoning me and whatnot, and so I think going might just make me feel worse, but at the same time -- there's something about being at the bottom of the list that makes you feel bummed.

Why are we so freaking crazy?
klia
Mar. 1st, 2009 08:57 pm (UTC)
No S, M, or M, and now you, too? Aww, MAN!!!! This is such a bummer!
gwyn_r
Mar. 2nd, 2009 01:50 am (UTC)
Yeah. Knowing how many people might not be there is almost making me feel better. Are you going? Did you get in? I know that's one of the few chances you get to see Rindy.

To tell the truth, I'm feeling really down right now, very alone and very lonely, if you know what I mean. It's just... really kind of a struggle right now, because the person I would expect to room with will probably want to room with someone else because apparently I'm no longer friendship-worthy or something. I feel very isolated, and this time of year is really awful for me, so the whole reg thing just makes me feel kind of worse, but I know it's probably for the best. I don't think a dozen people will be off the list, but odder things have happened (and they upped the initial count this year, so...)

You're possibly the only person who'd understand when I say that every day, I wish more and more that it was me who died. Most people think I'm saying I'm going to top myself any moment, but I know you know what I'm talking about -- just that constant feeling of hopelessness. Something about all this, and the vid community and how it's changing, makes me just feel... I dunno. Maybe it's just for the best if I don't get in. I won't have to spend money I don't have and worry about finding a roomie and whatever.
klia
Mar. 2nd, 2009 04:06 am (UTC)
I got in, but I don't know if I'll be able to afford to go. I knew if I didn't register now, though, there was no way. VVC is my only chance to see a lot of people, and now so many of them aren't going, anyway. *sigh*

And yeah, I understand. I'm trying really hard to keep some perspective, and hope to rekindle my creative spark which, at the moment, feels like a cold, dead ember.

::hugs::
morgandawn
Mar. 3rd, 2009 06:46 am (UTC)
I hope you do make it. and I'll be happy to ask around if/when you need a roommate.
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